March update 2021

Yeah i got it . Money is not everything. But money can give u happiness, satisfying and love at SOME point. You dont know anything how much i want to have a lot of money and lucky.I strugle for sumthing i want for myself and my beloved. I guess im x work hard enuf to achieve my target. Im disspointed at myself. Im tired so fx tired to think anything else. I just go with the flow with all effort i can do. I know i am x suppose to say this. But this is me. Everything is not enuf with me. There must be sumthing that i lack of. I hate myself. I can always dream for something big not gonna try to reach it. Everyone found their happiness but im all alone not even searching . I hate myself so much. How am suppose to live .